Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Apparently I Have 3 Heads
Since that's the look I got last night at lamaze when the instructor asked, "So, is anyone here NOT planning on having an epidural?" and I was the only one who raised their hand. I seriously was waiting for people to come up to me and ask me why I wasn't planning on one. (Notice I say I'm not planning on one - this is not to say I can't change my mind. But I'd like to avoid it if I can.)

My feelings are this. I had 6 rounds of chemo. Very very aggressive chemo. Six rounds of 2-day protocols where in one day I had 3 hard core drugs put through my system - not to mention the drug to ward off nausea, the drug to keep my white count up, the drug to keep my red count up and the honkin' bag of saline I'd have to finish before I was let free from my i.v. tether. I have issues now with taking medications I don't have to. I feel like I got my fill thank you. I steer clear of medicines if I can. I take Tylenol only when I can't function and take cough syrup if I can't sleep. So if I can turn down medications I will.

I had a bone marrow biopsy. That means I had LARGE needles pounded into the back crests of my pelvis. So needless to say I have issues with needles in my back now.

So there you have it. Like I say, I plan on no epidural. I might get in there and beg them to cover me with needles to give me drugs. But I want to do as much research as I can to find ways to naturally deal with the pain.

(This was especially addressed to the large mouth-breathing lummox who sits next to us in lamaze. He looked horrified that I didn't want one.)

14 comments:

Kerry McKibbins said...

I respect your decision, however RIDICULOUS it may be.
Honey, I don't want to scare you, but child birth can be, um, a little uncomfortable at times. If I could have started heroin in my 7th month, I would have.
Seriously, a lot of (insane) women have had natural childbirth.
No, SERIOUSLY this time, I truly do respect your decision. I understand. Read up on all you can.
Ask friends about it. Once they stop laughing they'll give you honest answers.
Love you!

Curly Glamour Girlie said...

Bah to you I say...BAH!!!

Big Pissy said...

I took all the drugs they would give me to get through childbirth.

Both times. ;-)

That being said....the choice is yours to make. After what you've been through..I can see why you'd feel the way you do.

Crabby said...

I didn't have one.

Course they sent me home when my labor pains were a minute apart. All the way back in the squad the firemen kept begging me not to push. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ha ha ha!

Oh and I didn't tell anybody I was in labor till my water broke because it was pizza night and HELLO I waited all week for that pizza.

The good part about barely making it back in time was .... no enema! taaaaaaa daaaaaaaa!

Maddie said...

i don't have children but i'm always shocked to hear unwarranted advice/responses my friends with children get s. do what feels right for you...only youknow hat's best for you!

Maureen said...

Wow... I didn't realize you went through all that in your past, so I can definitely see your point of view.

Luckily, I didn't have to make that decision; I ended up having an emergency C section so they had to knock me out...

Whatever you decide, best of luck.

Jerrster said...

just bring that bundle home...as safe and sound as possible....because your life as you know it is done....join us:::zombie parent walk:::::

Curly Glamour Girlie said...

Pissy - Everyone goes through it differently!

Crabby - They no longer do the shaving and enemas anymore! I'm off the hook in that aspect! And I'd be holding out for pizza too! I'm excited that there's a fabulous little coffeehouse 2 blocks from the hospital that has incredibly yummy food!

Pants - Here here! Unsolicited advice seems to be abundant. But you having no children must often get, "Wait until you have your own children."

Maureen - Thanks!

Jer - Believe me, I'm sitting on the couch and doing nothing every chance I get!

Anonymous said...

I competely understand your lack of desire for more needles in your body, however, you might want to to rethink having one on hand just in case....

Curly Glamour Girlie said...

P.E. - I am open to modifying the plan, but want to go as drug free as I can!!

Maddie said...

Worse than "wait till you have your own children" is the more popular, "When are you going to have kids."

To which I respond, "When I find the right person to have kids with."

Forever followed up with, "Why aren't you married/have a boyfriend, etc."

"Because I prefer imaginary relationships, hate men, etc."

Curly Glamour Girlie said...

Pants - The next time that happens I say you introduce the offender to your imaginary boyfriend next to you.

Jill said...

I didn't have any kind of pain medication with my daughter, then had an epidural with my son & I can honestly say I would NOT have another epidural!!!!!!!!!!!! The epidural ***caused*** me more problems than it solved & it didn't even go into effect until I was halfway done pushing. One thing I *can* say about it - it was VERY evident the exact moment that it went into effect. One minute I was telling the nurse I needed to push, the next I was asking her, "When? When do I push?" But I had all kinds of problems with it for months & months afterwards - mostly my back was sore like when I'd lean back to rinse my hair in the shower. Nothing debilitating but definitely not worth those few moments of pain relief.

Curly Glamour Girlie said...

Jill - That's a lot of what I heard. I figure I'm just going to try my best but have an open mind.